Serval – epic huge meeting – with much work for rest of week. Assigned myself development time, which i really haven’t done for a while (in set times). Now, i am saying thursday & friday is MINE. Coding is as much about headspace as anything – you need that headspace to be focus time, not diverted to business activities. So, tomorrow, many business tasks. Things are really ramping up, and i am having to go back into project mode. Which will make our project manager happy (she doesn’t read this, so i am safe i suspect!)
Quilting – nada. Thought about it. That is something, no?
Kids – play date day for ms 9, she & friend & mr 7 had a blast inside and outside all day. Cubby house, sandpit, inside fort, trampoline, swings, xbox360, wii, and tv. Not a lot of the tv based stuff, but enough for the down moments:) Ms 18 off for a break at her dad’s for the rest of the week – some non noisy family, second part of family (my eldest, ms 24, and their magic dad,aka one of my most valued friends:) ) Ms 16 in a10 days gone into caretaker mode (must nurture family mode). She is a darling one, but they all are:) Naturally, had to watch The Goodies with wee ones before bed was contemplated.
Dad – looking tired, worrying me a lot. The verdict on his radiation treatment for prostate cancer will be in next month. As the interim result wasn’t the best,his ongoing tiredness worries me. I am hoping it means radiation still working, but, well…
Activities – besides all else, some shopping. A surprisingly mammoth task, shopping for a few days when it is just me and wheelchair against the world. Meeting took up a great amount of time and energy, so between the two, plus kidlets – well, bye day. Oh, air yet another colour. Yes, i have low attention span. Aimed for blue black, have black with red purple blue streaks. Really dig it:) Think darkness is mine now, (darkling, i listen….?). Gave Tux the Linux penguin, who had many adventures with me, to Dr Paul’s eldest daughter, a sweet little magic princess. I have been reliably informed that he is being utterly adored – which is good for him, and me to know:)
Status – odd day, was some stuff to deal with at meeting i was dreading. Ended up doing usual coping mechanism, which is not the wisest, but my body deals with stress by getting nauseous. Wish it wouldn’t! At least pain is settled down a lot. Rest days so needed, but the medication is definitely settling into place better. Which makes management better – one restricted day where two or three utter helpless in agony days once were. Hoping i can maintain this trend! Tattoo healing nicely, too.
Mindset – relieved meeting went off okay eventually Feeling really excited about the project. Also feeling cautiously optimistic as more data to confirm feeling pain is getting better managed. The higher dosage + lesser interval seems key, side effects still a bitch, but that management, while tricky, seems to be working too. Restrictive, but hey, not as much as pain is!
Score – today we have a 7. Was climbing post meeting, of course, but rest is settling it. Tired after sleep issues, but they were based on me worrying about meeting.
For anyone interested, pain is rated on a scale of 1-10. 1 is pretty well 0, for these purposes, 10 is utterly crippling, and have only been there a few times. Ended up being carted away in an ambulance the last occasion, when back had epic sudden deterioration, and i went from limping and occasional walking stick,t o needing a wheelchair overnight. So, 9 is pretty well it, 9.5 means i am crying and waiting for uber drugs to kick in, but the .5 at this end of pain scale is quantum scale, as opposed to the .5 between a 1 and 1.5, say….every tiny increment over 7 is really noticed. I haven’t been below a five in the last year, (since that last incident), and rarely am below 6, as that would require a few days of immobility and massive medication, so ain’t gonna happen, peeps (unless i have no choice, i have learnt any other attitude is bravado…).
Is anyone reading these, btw? I had complaints not enough personal info, is this too much? Am i just using my blog as a chance to life sample? And who gives a pair of fetid dingoes kidneys for anyone’s opinion on my blog, anyway?:)
Listened to: We Play the Game from the album “A Valid Path” by Alan Parsons
(One of my highest rotation songs atm, LOVE this. Seriously, about 10th time today. Will do that with a song.)