I did catch a virus though, from an evil teen in sharing mode:)
You know those kinds of flu type viruses where even your eyelashes seem to ache, your eyelds are made of lead, and your bones ache? Yeah they go so well with my back issues, but do provide some minor entertainment in providing diffferent symptoms, different aches from chronic pain. Variety, don’t you know. Avoiding coughing as much as possible, as too pain inducing.
In short, I am whinging and griping as if i had man flu (thankfully it isn’t THAT bad!). I hate my kids having to see me in chronic pain often enough as is, damned if my baby is going to have his birthday spoiled by me. I hide in my room not to avoid them – but to hide what it is like. It is bad enough what they do see. They shouldn’t have to deal with it too much.
Must be well tomorrow, my baby turns 7, and he wants his mummy’s special home made lemon sweet tart cake. Family party too. Now, this means if i have to damn well crawl into kitchen in morning before he arrives back home from his dad’s, i will be. Nothing will stop me making that cake, and and sitting with him, taking photos as he blows out his candles, and watching as he gets tired and grumpy from presents and spoiling and over tiredness at end of day. His birthday- he can.
I will be tired and grumpy and sick again after that – it won’t matter then:)
Now, to try and sleep for the first time in a few nights (a notoriously bad sleeper, the last two nights have been legends even for me).
