Deus Ex Malcontent: Forever and Never, Amen.
And welcome to the questions i now ask myself, as i have let others down, as they have let me down.
I believed, oh how I believed. When that was lost, I settled for my YEARNING to believe. My faith in love, i commitment, in closing my eyes and just working harder than I ever had.
No more. Burnt too much. I have had enough. And that is totally, utterly ok. I need some distance and healing. That may be the rest of my life.
Reading the article above crystallised that for me, in a sudden rush of recognition, of understanding, of totally GROKKING something.
Don’t believe anymore.
